Today Carmelo took some photos of me and when I saw one particular photo of me, my immediate reaction was “THAT is me”. It’s not that the other photos that Carmelo took of me today weren’t of me, but this particular photo, to me, captures the expression, mood, vibe and “aura” of who I think makes me me. I particularly like Carmelo’s black and white edit. There’s something about the hair, the expression in the eyes and the colour of the lips that makes me feel like this photo is really me.
Over the past year, since I’ve been blogging and vlogging I’ve had a lot of pictures taken of me (both by myself and Carmelo) and it got me wondering… Which photos are capturing me? Of course, all photos of me (my body) are of me, but some photos are photos of my art, they’re photos of looks that I create for myself because I think that they make a nice photo, but they’re not photos that depict who I think is me. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE playing dress up and feeling not like myself… That is partly why I create looks for my blog.
Now I should make it clear that I’m very picky and fussy about what photos of myself I publish. At the time of publication, I always think that the photos I published capture my art perfectly.
I’ll tell you what I mean about this through some examples but I understand that this post is possibly one of my weirdest. Anyhow.
Let’s start with this look below. Here I was wearing double French braids and hooped earrings. I love double French braids but somehow, particularly when paired with gold hooped earrings, they don’t feel me. I wear them out and love them, but it’s when I want to look more sassy than I am. The braids by themselves can feel like me, but the pairing with the hooped earrings is what feels less me. 🙂
The colourful eye makeup look below, and most colourful makeup look photos. This particular photo is almost me. It’s me on a very good day but it’s not me in general. I love this look, but all the colour doesn’t make me feel like me. Again, I do love wearing very colourful looks, but I love how they look, they just don’t feel like me.
I must include this photo below in this series. I loved wearing these green trousers and colourful top but this is a day where I absolutely felt like I wasn’t me but I loved every second of it. I went nuts. I paired it with colourful makeup, a very sassy high bun and some gold jewellery from harrychadent.com. I walked around feeling bright and sassy.
I love creating looks and taking photos but not all photos capture me. So which photos do capture me? Apart from the picture that inspired this post, here are some more photos that I think capture me below…
Calm face, crazy hair. Sometimes things around me do seem chaotic. I do my best to keep calm.
Sometimes I don’t keep calm. And you can tell.
If I’m ever happy/euphoric… you can tell.
So that’s me. It’s almost 1am when I’m posting this and I understand that in the morning I might wake up and think wtf was I writing last night? … But anyway, I hope you enjoyed this post and found it entertaining. Do let me know what you think 🙂