No Makeup, no touch ups, no filter and hair pulled back. Day 17 of the #30DaysOfBeautyChallenge. A few years ago I would have been very uncomfortable posting this. Now I’m very much over it.
When I was younger I had serious problems with being seen without makeup. More so, I had problems being seen without some of my makeup. There was a day when I was 16 and I went out of the house in a rush to go to school (sixth form) and I forgot to put on black eyeliner on my bottom waterline. I was very embarrassed to be out without eyeliner in my waterline and simply looked at the ground for the whole bus ride to school. “Luckily” I had some eyeliner in my bag and when I got to school, I rushed to the ladies room and quickly put on my eyeliner before anybody I know sees me. I felt relieved.
Another incident that my friend still reminds me of to this day, is that she once came to school without mascara. She had a full face of makeup (including eyeshadow and eyeliner) but she just forgot to put on mascara, because she went out of the house in a rush, I imagine. 16 year old me, had to point that out and told her that that’s unacceptable. So much drama, all in the name of some missing mascara. Poor thing had to have me as a friend.
A few years on, I was still hung up over not being caught without makeup. It was a big deal when someone new saw my bare face for whatever reason. I moved to the UK and had female housemates, it was a big deal for me to have them see me without makeup in the beginning.
These days I realise how irrational my fear of being caught without makeup is. I mean, when I put black eyeliner in my waterline, do I expect people to believe that I was born with a black waterline? They obviously know that I wasn’t (I hope). Gold eyeshadow? Nope, I wasn’t born with gold eyelids. Or a smokey eye. Or blush. Or bronzer …. Or whatever lipstick shade I decide to slap on. You get the drift.
Nowadays I find it more important to take good care of my skin. Rather than relying on concealer, I’d rather keep pimples at bay by treating them early. My dark circles, I have them, a lot of people do. I use eye patches every once in a while but oh well, dark circles are a thing and I’ve been sporting mine since I was about 13.
I grew up with a mentality that being seen without makeup isn’t ok. But that mentality isn’t ok. I still wear makeup every time I go to work, but the amount of makeup I wear varies from full glam to some concealer and mascara just to look awake. In a professional setting I do like to look like I’m awake and not tired. If I need to rush out to the convenience store to grab something, I don’t fuss over slapping on some makeup and I’m perfectly comfortable hanging around coffee shops, supermarkets, friends etc. without makeup. That said, as you know I do love makeup and on some days I wear it even if I’m not planning on leaving the house. I simply enjoy the process.
My final remark about this topic. Yesterday I was at a restaurant and I unintentionally overheard some of the conversation that the couple at the nearby table were having. The girl was gossiping about a girl she knows and she was telling her boyfriend “She looks very different without makeup”. I see or hear this being said over and over and I don’t get it. I mean, I hope that I look different without makeup, I don’t spend all my money on foundation, bronzer, eyeshadows, mascaras etc. to look the fucking same.
What’s your relationship with makeup?